BIG lesson!

Lesson learned: FIGHTING EATS ME TO THE CORE!!

(Just avoid it all together)

Austing, Kristen, Sophie, and Casey:

I Love you all so much!! I am very sorry for what i have done to all of you!! I can not be and be mad anymore!! Please can this just be done!! I am sorry for hurting you all, and I promise with all my heart that it will never happen agian!! EVER!! I want everything back to normal is that to much to ask!! I am trying please just meet me in the middle!! I am not strong enough to go the whole 100!! Meet me half way I am trying so hard!! I LOVE YOU!!!

What I learned:

Laughter is the cure for everything!!

...And dancing in the snow...

What I learned today:

I learned that you can be alone and happy!!

Is it so Wrong?

So The past week i became single! And got thinking about what i really want in life and somethings i have really screwed up on and realized its time for a change time to mend things that are broken and become closer to the church and everything! The first thing that came to mind was how bryce (ex Boyfriend) and I left things! I right away wanted to talk to him and fix things and see if we can be friends agian and if thats not possable at least make thing right because i hate being in fights with people it always eats me to the core. Thinking of all the ways i could get hold of him i found his bestfriends phone number so i texted him and asked for bryces number he refused to give to me a long with 3 other people. I found an email from him today that said:

"What the freak is your problem Leslie? What is it you need to talk to me about so badly that you have to bother every single person I know to get my number that YOU deleted? "

Is it wrong to want to fix things? Is it wrong to try to get hold of him and apologize for everything? I feel like everyone is making me the bad guy when i am just trying to do whats right! Should i give up or keep trying to fix things and fix my life? Please help!!!

DEAR EVERYONE!!

UPDATE!!!

School:
Getting really really really sick of it!! I just want to be done already!! I am probably not going to school next semester, I dont have the money for it. I probably am going to fail my history class because its deathly hard and the test are beasty. My math class and Intro to Film class is super easy and i hope to pass them with flying colors.

Work:
Well ya know work is work!! Still managing away. We are getting a new back manager because the other one got suspended and now isn't coming back as manager. I am pretty happy about that because that now means i can work whatever days i want because i am the oldest one so i get to choose. YAY which means i dont have to work saturdays anymore so i can spend them with casey. Which brings me to...

Relationship:
YES i am in a new relationship! His name is Casey John Winters I meet him when i was 14 at youth conferencel. After that we never talked to each other until a couple months ago when we found out we were both in the same singles ward. We have been talking for 2 months and now we are officialy together. Now before any of you ask he is NOT younger then me, and as a matter of fact he is 4 years OLDER then me!! If you do that math that makes him 22. We just have so much fun together and enjoy EVERY second together! I am learning about him every single day! I have learned that Him and Miah are not a good combination, I got a ab workout one day and almost died because i couldn't breath! He is my favorite and i really like him in my life.


Right now my life is really content! I LOVE EVERY DAY!! I wouldn't trade anything! :)

Lyman, Wyoming!!

This past weekend Rachel and I took off on Thursday to go to Whitney's house! Whitney asked me last week if i was willing to come up and watch the twins while her and her husband went hunting for the weekend! It was cake!! They woke up every day around 8 i would feed them Cheerios play with them for a bit and then put them down for a nap and then they would wake up and it would be lunch time and i would feed them dinner, then play with them and they went to bed at like 8:30!! Whitney and Jeremy came home every night around 8! Playing with the twins it just a treat! They are silly and funny to play with and watch. Watching them eat is so funny and how messy they are! I learned that Kylee LOVES Macaroni and Cheese! Kamri loves you chasing her. I was teaching Kylee the whole time how to walk she is going to be hard to control once she can walk!! I loving watching the girls do everything that they do! On Friday night Rachel and i decided to go and drive around and find what we can find. WE HAD SO MUCH FUN! We took pictures around the LITTLE town. and went to the local grocery store. Everything is to different there, and EVERYTHING is so little and it all closes early! But it was a very great get away from everything weekend and i have decided i need to do it more often!!

My thoughts!

The past couple of weeks i have focused on me and what i need and i have learned so much so i thought i would just do a list:

1: BOYS ARE STUPID!!
I have finally moved on from Bryce, and i have finally ready to start dating and going on dates again, but for some reason that is like against guys religion. Its either guys don't go on dates with people anymore or Leslie is just butt ugly! I asked one guy on a date a couple weeks ago and he said no, and my friend asked another guy for me because i was a complete chicken and well he said no also. So I am just way to much of a chicken to ask any guy on a date again a fear of rejection. But its like i am so sick of trying so hard. I just wish a boy will show me I'm worth the effort. I am worth getting over the fear of asking a girl on a date and ask me. Sense i have been 16 i think i have been on a total of 3 or 4 dates that the guy has asked me. I only went to high school dances that were girl choices. I went to almost everyone my Jr. year and 2 or 3 of them my senior year. I only went to one guys choice dance, prom my senior year and Bryce took me (he didn't even go to my school).

2: Its time to prepare!!
I have finally realized that my next big steps in life are graduating from college and Marriage. I will not Rush into marriage it will happen when its suppose to happen but i need to start preparing for when that time comes because i want to be completely prepared when it happens. Many people tell me 1 or 2 years and you will be married yes that scares the crap out of me i am way to young to be getting married but what if it a year away and i am not ready at all. Marriage will come sooner then i think and i am so far from ready for that. But i am getting there, everyday i am working closer and closer to the temple.

3: Happy to be me!!
I use to tend to be someone else to make everyone else around me happy. I would do stuff that wouldn't make me happy but it made other people happy. But i realized its time to focus on me. Its time to make Leslie Shore happy and put me first. I am just as important as everyone else. I am doing what i want to do. I am doing what i think is best for me. I am being the REAL Leslie and i will never let anyone take her away from me and try to change me. If you don't like me the way i am then you don't need to talk to me. I am a strong self Driven person! I am so happy to be me and not someone fake. Not someone i am not because for so long i have been trying to be what everyone wanted me to be and everyday it would just crush me down. I am now building myself up and no one can take me down.

4: BEST FRIENDS ARE AMAZING
I have so many friends that i can count on any second of any day. I have Ryan Roper who will drop anything and talk to me and call me and just let me vent my anger and frustrations out and will tell me exactly what he thinks and is probable the most caring person in the world. I have Sophie and Kristen who will rescue me from my house when i am down and sad. because sitting at home when you are not in the best of moods just makes things worse. We can do the wildest of things and its just so much fun. We get out and play a lot and they are the best to talk to and they will give me words of encouragement. I have Rachel who just makes me forget about everything when i am with her and can make me laugh even when i am on the verge of tears. These friends are what i want to be. I want to be a friend that anyone can turn to. A friend that no matter what i am just a phone call or drive away. I want to be what those 4 people are to me. The lord put them in my life to help me and now i am ready and standing waiting for him to put me somewhere so i can be that friend to them. All 4 of these people would never leave my side, even if i screw up so bad they will forgive me and put it behind me. I am being a Best Friend, I am being a Friend!

5: Forgive and Forget
I REALLY needed to learn that. I regret with all my heart some things i have done in my past. I have blow things way out of proportion, and i would hold it against them for a long time. Everyone makes mistakes no one is perfect and i mess up all the time and so why should any of my friends be different. My biggest one that still kills me to this day is my birthday. I think i got mad at Bryce almost everyday for him not being able to be with me on my birthday. He had no control what so ever over it, and he had somewhere else to be that was A LOT more important then a stupid birthday. If he could have, he would have came down but he had no choice. I blew that completely out of proportion and i believe because of my birthday that is why i lost him. Even though i got mad at him so many times for that he did so much to make it up to me, he called me on my birthday even though he shouldn't have because he was on his high adventure and had VERY little service. He let me spend time with his dads family on the 4th of July were i crashed his wave runner. He sent me flowers on my birthday to show that he did care and felt really bad. He came down and we spent an amazing day together on a date. and HE made me a blanket!! and i never truly told him how much all that stuff meant to me, I let the stupid him missing my real birthday take over all the amazing stuff he did to make it up! Even though he is not in my life anymore i wish he could know how much everything he did meant the world to me. It probable was one of the best birthdays ever, but i never EVER thanked him for it all!! I have learned to forgive and forget and i am positive it will keep together so many friendships.

I just need to say sorry to anyone I have hurt. Thanks to everyone for everything they have done for me. I AM SO SORRY!! and THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!! I LOVE YOU!!

Dear everyone:

It has been way to long and so much has changed in the past long while! I have graduated high school and I have moved on to bigger and greater things! I have many things that have changed so i think i will just make a list:

COMPUTER NERD!!

8-) IM A COMPUTER NERD!!!! 8-)

So Lately I find myself sitting at the computer!! Now hold on everyone I know for most people you think Leslie is always on the computer but it’s not me at the computer it’s my mother!! Now that the time that I will soon be moving away from home is coming sooner and sooner my mom doesn't know what she is going to do without me. I am giving her a lot of lessons on how to do what on the computer! I am the only person in this house who can fix the computer. If something is wrong everyone comes to me! I did everything for my mom but now she insists on learning it herself and I get so frustrated with her! I have no passionate for this!! I can do it less then like 2 mins and it takes mom like 20 min! She sits and stares at the computer for like a min and then I give and tell her what she is supposed to do. My mom has said many times that when I come home from college I will be sitting at the computer fixing things and teaching her more things the whole time! I am even better then my dad at fixing the computer! That might be because dad says "I can’t fix it" like he does everything before he even try’s to fixes it! And every time I would fix it so a couple times of my dad saying they the family decided to just come straight to me because they know I can fix it! I guess it’s just an excuse to me to be on the computer!! I am just glad mom finally did it and got a blog! Even though I have spent many days teaching her how to do stuff on blogger she is doing pretty good for an old person (I love ya mom). It takes a couple of times of explaining something for her to get it but she is finally getting everything. It’s also some good bonding time!!! I don't mind helping her at all! I wonder how many phone calls I will be getting from mom asking me how to do this and that when I am at college!?

Hello everyone! I know its been a long time my life it like nonstop!! I am in my Last Semester in high school! I am so so so exited to graduate and move on with my life!! My senior year so far and been a blast i wouldn't change it for the world!
School is kind of pointless!! Right now on A days I go and intern at my moms work, Cedar Ridge, then I go to 2nd at school which is college writing which is and easy A class! On B days I have seminary, Childcare, and Prostart. Its cake! Almost everyday I leave straight from school to work! yes i still work at Taco Amigo! I love they day people! I do not work nights anymore, and can i say that was the BEST idea ever! I love not working nights and have all night to do whatever i desire.
My Intern is a blast I just barely started doing it but its amazing!! I intern for Miss. Allen! She teachers 1st grade! The kids are great! I get to read with them a get to know them really good. Right now she has me working on a project for the end of the school year. On the wordle.net site i am making a name thing (look at last post) I am making them for everyone of her kids in the class! I love it because it gives me a chance to get to know everyone in the class a lot better! All the kids come up to me and say "HI, MISS SHORE" it just brightens my day.
In case some of you don't know i have the most amazing boy in my life!! His name is Ronald Bryce Petersen! I met him at EFY over the summer! We will have been together 8 months on the 14th!! He lives in North Ogden which does make things hard but we are getting through just fine! We see each other at least every 3 weekends!! Mostly its every other weekend!
Now that the end of my high school year is coming i am getting really stressed on where i am heading to college. I freaked out the other day because all my friends have told me i got the feeling i need to be here. I have no gotten any feeling in where i should be going to school. Snow college is looking really good but i cant afford housing, college, books, and food. So my Other option is to live at home keep working at Taco Amigo and go to UVU. Right now before i make my decision and want i want to do i need to get my acceptance letter from snow and see if they offered me a scholarship! The other day i realized that what is suppose to happen will just fall into place! If i am meant to go to snow i will get a scholarship if not then i wont get one. I plan on getting my Generals done then transferring to Utah State where i will be getting my teaching degree in FACS (Family and Consumer Science).
I have the most amazing calling in Church ever!! I was called in August as a Councilor for Special Needs Mutual! Every Thursday night i get to go to mutual with 130 amazing Special Needs!! I wouldn't trade it for anything! I believe that i was not called to this calling to help them! They are helping me SO much more then I'm helping them! Also along with Every Thursday night i get to once a month we do a visiting ward where i ward comes in and does our activity on Thursday, then we go and do there whole Sacrament meeting! Its by far the most emotional Sacrament meeting I have been to and anyone who has experience it.
So pretty much my life it just doing pretty good! I'm a typical senior in High School! Doing Senior kind of things!

Cool Websit!

Coolest Websit ever!!!

If you go to this websit http://www.wordle.net/ you can make your own!!

This is what i learn in Intern for Miss. Allen!! hehe! To make your name big type it more then once! the more you type it the bigger it gets!! Each new word goes on a different line! If you want to do a sentence put this ~ inbetween each word instead of a space! Then once your done push ok!! it will bring it up you can design it on your own witht he things ontop or you can have them design it by pushing at the bottom Randomize! HAVE FUN!!

PS-Tomorrow what is been going on in my life is coming!!!