Is it so Wrong?

So The past week i became single! And got thinking about what i really want in life and somethings i have really screwed up on and realized its time for a change time to mend things that are broken and become closer to the church and everything! The first thing that came to mind was how bryce (ex Boyfriend) and I left things! I right away wanted to talk to him and fix things and see if we can be friends agian and if thats not possable at least make thing right because i hate being in fights with people it always eats me to the core. Thinking of all the ways i could get hold of him i found his bestfriends phone number so i texted him and asked for bryces number he refused to give to me a long with 3 other people. I found an email from him today that said:

"What the freak is your problem Leslie? What is it you need to talk to me about so badly that you have to bother every single person I know to get my number that YOU deleted? "

Is it wrong to want to fix things? Is it wrong to try to get hold of him and apologize for everything? I feel like everyone is making me the bad guy when i am just trying to do whats right! Should i give up or keep trying to fix things and fix my life? Please help!!!